burning up

Lately, life don't hit the same Why'd things have to change Everything's changing for the worse And I can't make it work And I can't take this hurt I just keep burning up Lately, I've had to force myself to go and hit record These days, I couldn't even tell you what I do it for Or really, like, what am I doing at all Cause the last few months, it felt like I've been losing it all First the drive, then my will, then my dog I was searching for my soul and I got lost I guess nobody's phone works when you're off I tried to buy my peace of mind, but I ain't know how much it cost And it's embarrassing how many years I said would be my year Or the sheer amount of tears I had to shed to just get here Or the fact that people close loved the shit on my career If you have a dream, then follow it, watch all your friends disappear Lately, I've been complaining, wondering if I'll ever make it Having thoughts that I can't share, I hope I'm strong enough to shake it The hate for my reflection got me wishing I could change it But if time's supposed to heal, then I guess I'll keep on waiting Lately, life don't hit the same Why'd things have to change Everything's changing for the worse And I can't make it work And I can't take this hurt I just keep burning up And lately, stress has got me ripping out all my hair I thought that I could take the world, but I didn't prepare For people that say they love you, but their actions wasn't there Cause they swear they gonna spot you, then they go and pull the chair Now take a look at what I'm left with, bitterness and resentment I'm trying to do my best, but what if it's best if I just left it I don't think I'd even regret it, and I don't know if I ever said this But I don't do features with other artists cause I always felt rejected It's always you're too soft, and we prefer you didn't rap I'm just looking for a heart-to-heart working with someone who understands And I'm sorry if y'all ain't into that, then I don't need you on my track I'd rather do this shit by myself, and just leave it at that They say it's lonely at the top, but I think it's worse in the middle Because you got enough pieces to know that you can't solve the riddle It's like you're big enough to have people worried about your next move But not big enough to be able to tell these people to move Lately, life don't hit the same Why'd things have to change Everything's changing for the worse And I can't make it work And I can't take this hurt I just keep burning up Burning up