Self Sabotage

Wine drunk and it's 2am I've got myself in my feels again I'm wishing that this was just pretend I said "I love you" accidentally And now I'm crying hysterically Time to run and hide somewhere for none to see While I ask myself Is this all worth it? Self-sabotage Again like I always do I wish you never heard me F*ck the only thing I believe Sabotage, But I'm the only one to blame For messing things up like I do Now I wish I never even knew you "It's just like so difficult Because it feels like a constant cycle of I get attached to someone and then Oops, I say the wrong thing Or I spill too much about myself because I trust them And then I run away to try and protect myself Like what the f*ck" Poured out myself again I thought this time it'd be different To run away is my only defense While I ask myself Is this all worth it? Self-sabotage Again like I always do I wish you never heard me F*ck the only thing I believe Sabotage, But I'm the only one to blame For messing things up like I do Now I wish I never even knew you You're messing everything up You should go hide instead I wish that one day I could get out Of my fucking head You're messing everything up You should go hide instead I wish that one day I could get out Of my fucking head You're messing everything up You should go hide instead I wish that one day I could get out Of my fucking head You're messing everything up You should go hide instead I wish that one day I could get out Of my fucking head Self-sabotage Again like I always do I wish you never heard me F*ck the only thing I believe Sabotage But I'm the only one to blame For messing things up like I do Now I wish I never even knew you "Like, it's just over and over again And it's a cycle And I wanna get out of it And I try to get out of it But like, I don't know if I can"