Failure

Everyday's a struggle just to keep my life together Ive been battling my demons and they say that it gets better But its only getting worse And I swear my life's a curse Ive been giving all Im worth Just to fall right in the dirt Ive overcame my drug addictions Eased up on the alcohol Wishing grandma was around I swear I need that phone call The things that I would do just to hear your voice again But your gone so all I've got now is a paper and a pen Why does everyday feel like it'll be my last one My boat is almost sunken when it was meant to sail I thought I finished fighting the battle and that i had won But its something that Im scared ill loose and always fail Ive made some bad decisions but nobody's really perfect Ive made a'lot of sacrifices Tell me was it worth it Ive bottled my emotions Just to hide all of the pain From the struggles that i've fought through or the thoughts inside my brain I wish that I could over come it Make it go away But its a fight that I must battle every single day If I want to make it out I have keep on trying And fake it till I make it just continue to smile Why does everyday feel like it'll be my last one My boat is almost sunken when it was meant to sail I thought I finished fighting the battle and that i had won But its something that Im scared ill loose and always fail