Decompression

It's been a little minute since I kept it real with myself Resisting the issues that came with cards the time dealt Don't mean to dismiss you but it's been long since I felt A positive reinforcement feeling my mind melt Falling victim to the illusion Been heavy on my mind while fighting through the confusion Excuse my oversharing it comes with the self intrusion At the same time I'm fighting the urge of self retribution Where my mind go This ain't a drill I been out on my own Ever since them rollers came and took me out of my home I contemplated suicide more times than I can condone That next five I knew I had to be strong Did it alone While sitting alone up in a cell I was forced to pick up my cross and drag it across the gates of hell For those of you thinking you know me oh so well There's a side of your story in which you lack intel Look Chasing dreams though these times been the hardest We in a day and age where everyone's a musical artist Without ability or introspect to know where they heart is It's like the blind leading the blind I feel it's truly retarded And though I can't knock how a person cope I just feel we should assess before we claim we woke And influence a generation drowning in pills and smoke Clinging to hope When we just broke adults our damn selves A damn shame I'm feeling the pressure kicking in Anxiety is becoming one of my closest friends Silent addictions are tryna get the upper hand Indulging in things I shouldn't while scrolling through the gram Uncomfortable conversations had as a married man Disgruntled from all the things that I seen inside the pen There ain't no glamour in wasting your life behind a fence Tear gas and riots killing quietness Clinging to your soul seeking righteousness 93 Told me get it out of me So now I'm manifesting these visions inside of me Freeing my mind and moving a bit more quietly I switched my tactics up and matured on a lot of things I Think I'm the man now Can't nobody say they made me They see the way I move and mistake my genius for crazy Learn to read between the lines And pay attention to the signs It all reveals itself in time In a time where comparison is king Everybody swears the next soul possesses something out of reach If I had a dollar each time that was said to me I'd be a part of the elite While most of y'all dragging y'all feet I manifested every part of the plan Battling through these demons that's forcing my hand I told her I don't think there's much more that I can withstand She told me that what's meant for me will come around and surely fall within my hands You could say that again You could say that again Yea yea You could say that again Could you say that again Yea yea Would you say that again Would you say that again Could you say that again Could you say that again You could say that again Could you say that again Would you say that again Yea yea Would you say that again Disgruntled from the pen Hiding behind a fence Yea yea Look what they made me give Look what they make you give Yea yea