In Essence

Sometimes I feel like such a failure in this life, With the things I didnt do as an adult, Uh, And then I listen to my parents and my partners, When they tell me bout how much I give them hope, And I know that shit is dope, But would it be the same, if I had all of these babies, And could stop running game, If a nigga went to college and my mentality changed, When I end up on the stage, having people scream my name, Tell me, will it be the same, Or would you switch because I'm different, Sidestep from the natural progression you predicted, I get it, But if it's a positive and that's given, What's the point in being a Chameleon, Or being in yo feelings, I thought you'd embrace my successes, And not becoming the man the media has projected, I guess that's not the case when yo light is being contested, I need to pick my circle better, In Essence... Never thought I shallowed while I was within yo presence, If anything, you deepened my vision and my perception, Sum In you changed, I would dare to call you jealous, But then yo hot head would miss the message, I care too much to wish you anything hellish, But understand, I gotta make some distance... In Essence... Sometimes I look at what we had in the past, And depression start to seep up in my skin, Uh And then I question how my life would have progressed, If I never even knew that you exist, And what would come of this, What stories could be told, What situations did you put me in to make me grow, How many times I learned if you ain't the holy ghost, Then I cannot trust a soul, from dealing with you alone, Like what stories could be told? You know, I welcomed your subsistance, And put your dislikes over my own feelings, Ignoring premonition, arguing my cognition, Just because you gave what I was missing, Some give a f*ck, But when it came from you, It felt like a chore, said you ain't mean it to, I won't do it no more, to defend you, And the next gon make it feel less pretend to. In Essence... Never thought I shallowed while in yo presence, If anything, you deepened my vision and my perception, Sum I'm you changed, I would dare to call you hellish, But then yo hot head would miss the message, I care too much to wish you to become jealous, But understand, I gotta make some distance... In Essence...