i thought you were god

I thought you were god I thought you were god. Didn't know you were hurt Mountains they'll rust Turn into dust Strength can fade Out and unmade All of this could go Right under your nose You sink tonight Where's the light Can you be saved The land always moves Forever making room Conserve your strength I'm here to stay Your life could go Right under your nose I didn't know how far you'd go Lake With all the things said I should know sun shines bright Through the days we go I'll be on That's for sure When I look back I thought I knew The lake flows clear In the day But at night It dark black grey Something's underneath I take everything As it goes Even if you say What the future holds The sunlight stays Always in my eyes And when it gone it's good And you throw it down In the lake To sink it down But no mistake It crept back up And everyday I held it down There's no way. To hold it now Into the lake. I throw it all I thought it'd stay sunken deep It has a way of coming back But I won't fall from all this I'll unpack and deal with it And ill cut this beast down With the sword that we made I can't wait anymore Wait, there it goes A piece of me, I cut away Now I hope to tell the truth I'm not the same. That's the truth I can't help but mourn the change But through this, I'm glad you stayed River run Through flames and ash we march Walls concave us in, no space Your flame burns us too hot I got, I got to get away You won't stop crawling in the dark I, I float towards the light I'm free to the wind, but it won't stop pushing me Rolling down the way I know and I can't get a Grip on the ground and I wish I was more stable With all my ducks in a row and I'll get it don't you Know the waters dark and so cold, I will not follow you into Darkness that you seek and it's like there's a leak on your Ship it will sink and you don't even, even blink or close it On this river run we go and I'm pulling, pulling ahead, there you Got away from us but I can't, I can't wait any More and more you say, I won't, I won't not today I got my way Well in the dark something got on me When all is solved what would be left Part of me loves the pain Blood The sun is going down The wind is picking up The dirt's got no give And I can't forget How long can I watch you fade Into the blackness that you had made Now I'll be the big man And you will be deep in the sand And I say YOU WILL Look up and I'm alone And the days they turn and turn When I was a little kid The world was joyous And it brings me to my knees And I got so lost. That's why I'm always looking For part of me. They're out there I know Look down, down deep, inside of me Conflict and disease running through me Choices compound into a monster Only, only me can slay it all It's up to me and no one else Should I, I stay or should I break away In the end, what would be the best I got lost I stay looking For me And all this time I would've tried to fix it all in one day, I know It'll take more time, maybe my whole life. Why Did the good ones go away and the bad ones they stay. Ain't that Just how it goes sometimes and I got no control over that I give myself to the world and let all of you go. I hope We get better health in time and we grow so whole. I know I'll see you all again someday when the sun is shining, that's why I let go of my controlling ways and I'll be okay. I am saved Call my name Oh, I don't know How you've grown so cold The years just flow by Words have little use When you don't use them When you call my name, I won't doubt you again Swear to god I swear to god (you had to go... no choice) I heard the news that your gone Once I get you out of my head, then I'll get some rest (I don't know why) Summer snow Now I sit hiding my time, hoping for change on a dime All this time in one place leaves me out in space End of the year is on us now, nothing still is worked out All we do is push it aside, maybe next year we'll decide To put on boots and buckle in and fix it all with a grin But I grimace now because we're still and our plagues grow at their wills I, I wait for the summer snow Now I know it's time to go, pack up my things and hit the road No more time to look back, bleeds me how its all out of whack Move on now with all my might, cause I got no more fight The wind tells me lately, it's gotta change you can't breathe Move on now because I know, the summer snow wont show It never has and never will, gave up the hope long ago I, I can't wait for the summer snow The seasons have come and gone And I look in a stagnated pond I made the choice to be here To smile down all those fears To bring the light back to those eyes Don't you know the way So don't you run away Don't you want to stay Still I wait by the window How'd it get so damn cold The summer snow won't show and that's on you Quietly Quietly now I'm deterred from the world and all it has Quiet now, I'm thinking in my head, making plans to get ahead What I want is a happy life and ill get it in time Looking back I should have changed, so ill do it today Quietly now I'm starting over, I've changed Always I thought I'm alone, that's not the way Quietly now I'm exploring what I locked away Into this life, from now on, I will fill it with love Quietly now I'm loud and I'm not going back It's hard to keep others fire away Quietly now I shape my world and my people too Just like they do, we grow beautifully Quietly now I'm me and I'm the ,e that I chose I'm starting over,, I've changed, I'm redeemed