summer snow

Summer snow Now I sit hiding my time, hoping for change on a dime All this time in one place leaves me out in space End of the year is on us now, nothing still is worked out All we do is push it aside, maybe next year we'll decide To put on boots and buckle in and fix it all with a grin But I grimace now because we're still and our plagues grow at their wills I, I wait for the summer snow Now I know it's time to go, pack up my things and hit the road No more time to look back, bleeds me how its all out of whack Move on now with all my might, cause I got no more fight The wind tells me lately, it's gotta change you can't breathe Move on now because I know, the summer snow wont show It never has and never will, gave up the hope long ago I, I can't wait for the summer snow The seasons have come and gone And I look in a stagnated pond I made the choice to be here To smile down all those fears To bring the light back to those eyes Don't you know the way So don't you run away Don't you want to stay Still I wait by the window How'd it get so damn cold The summer snow won't show and that's on you Twilight I keep you in my head to keep you undead All this, All this gold we had made from our memories. Watch it fade away into an orange glaze. I feel it now boiling up, the light you shown. Where'd it go You know where it comes from in the back of an old house Where it leaks on out, old laughter, But only you knew where the holes are, they're covered up. Where are you Somewhere in the distance, there lies a fallowed field Where you were reborn after the storm and your still asleep Will you awake? There's peace to stay where you are All this, all this time now, where it goes to, thought I'd know you For much more time and it blows my mind your not here And it melts away, the light from those days, twilight Call me up early You called me up so early I'm always in a hurry and I didn't know Transcendent work day Waking up from a dream And heading off to work God I thought it was real Makes it just hurt I, I saw your face and it's been so long. What are you doing in this place Working through this day Sun beasts down its rays You left long ago Nothing we could say You, you said, as you take my hand, there's no going back so leave me in the past You let go of my hand and faded in the crowd Now you are part of the crowd, a stranger Some things end and don't come back, move on with everything Heading home from work Tired as hell Your still in my head And what you said How this mundane work day turned into transcendent space when I found you there Teleost Up to you! Trauma fatsuit Even now I wake in the same place everyday, nothing seems to change anyways All this time adds this weight that I cannot break, I gotta keep moving ahead I find myself in a trauma fat suit that'll keep on growing by the day The more the suit grows, the heavier it gets, gotta keep walking around with it I could see that you see my ugly suit and I bring it where I go I don't mean to put this suit on display, but it's a part of me All I wait for it to Go away something in the Air says it's here to Stay but I know the sun will come Now I bring the heaviness with Me and where I go I see it fill the Room and your face with the darkest Smoke and taint all that I Hoped would stay golden like your Face in bloom and that it just Looms over me sometimes I can Wait I don't need this to define My life, I leave it on the Road, roadside, I keep it moving When I'm waking on that day ill just be Feeling great and whole, I don't want to learn from this just go Nothing could come right down and knock it off I know I still got this trauma fat Suit, it's holding me down Wondered when it's going to end I cannot keep this going Forever, something's got to Break and it won't be me I will peel this fat suit off and breathe easier And my life won't be astray, I'll get it good but I don't wanna learn I just want you safe