Toxicity

So I guess I gotta little something to get off my chest You could say it's a little something Let's go On guard Toxicity it's killing me So fuckin bad I can't I can't fucking breathe Saying baby don't you leave Cause last time I didn't see you for a whole weekend Got me on my on my knees For toxicity Toxic hoe yes I caught you cheating Looking to pick a bone so you could leave an Got me rocking on my bed barely breathing Another panic attack, heartbreak season Eating the words I said without you speaking Because I can't breathe another reason To end it all but gotta stay walking tall A new begging is another beginning end Got me begging for my life with your name on my tongue Panic erratic short breaths heart racing With the five stages of grief I'm facing on the run First there's denial, anger, bargaining, then depression. I guess you could say Acceptance is the end of this transgression Got me screaming on top I just wished I would just fucking drop These racing thoughts that just won't stop Why wasn't I good enough Why did she leave Because the toxicity is just killing me All this time thinking bout a wedding ring While you on your little schemes Wedding dreams because of Toxicity can't fucking breathe Every time it's killing me Saying glad you left You weren't worth me Because the toxicity broke me down Taught me a life lesson That I reckon Earthly pleasures become heart treasures Up in flames came the Phoenix Wood pecking Taking trees down just to get a meal Leave 'em rotten because you steal Now you were just a life remix A past memory A broken dream But you got invested And I got reckless With my feelings you needed em Little sucubis Caught you cheating That's the reason I found my freedom Because I don't tolerate bitches Cheating Heartbreak season Middle of autumn When I was bawling Winter came, then depression Suicide came a calling That's what ended that little war weapon Of toxicity Toxicity it's killing me So fucking bad I can't fucking breathe Can't get the words out so just fucking leave I'll make you a song about How I found God on my knees Because you couldn't your legs closed One man wasn't enough But I don't know I guess you're a little hoe Why you coming in the middle of the night Saying this time your gonna make things right It's gonna be different this time We're gonna be together Springs coming it's gonna be better weather So I got on my knees just fucking leave Had to make her So she started to scream The I remembered the toxicity Right decision Phoenix in the flames was my vision Start a new life with with a boss wife Worship the man upstairs and feel no trife Cause the toxicity has got me remembering The Dark places and the dark times When I couldn't remember the sunshine When I thought I was going outta my fucking mind Almost ended my life Found a new place to hang that noose Like a dream catcher I'm my bedroom Lesson learned another day To achieve greatness I can't explain How much you helped me Get to another level Not even a plan b Not a plan c I was your plan d Because that's all you got outta me Toxicity it's killing Meee So fuckin bad I can't fuckin breath And that's why you'll never be seeing me Because you suffocated me Toxicity Toxicity it's killing Meee So fucking bad I can't fucking breathe Guess you won't be seeing me anymore Because you were a little fucking whore