IS IT ME ?

I get anxious, I need reassurance, I hate this I make assumptions to fail, I believe that I'm just able to If I'm too much, then I'll push you away But it's not enough, I can't expect you to stay Baby, I'm thinking too far, but can you hear me cry I'm scared Looking in the mirror and I'm teary-eyed Gazing at myself and I can't help to cry Gun and knife inside my hand, I'm thinking suicide It's so easy being dead than to be alive She told me that she leaving even though I'm changing I'm losing patience, my emotions need containing Is there somebody else that you've been entertaining Girl, why you playing? Girl, why you playing Nobody understanding things that I done been through I'm all alone, I got nobody I can vent to Depression kicking, dealing with too many issues Nobody listens, I don't got no one to run to Is it me? Yeah Is it me Is it me? Yeah Is it me Got these ghosts that keep me company They tell me everyday there's something really wrong with me These days it's hard to find relations that are promising That's my opinion, people tell me that it's only me I'm tired of thuggin', acting like there's nothing going on When I be doing right, they tell me what I'm doing wrong I'm fighting demons, we can never seem to get along Tell me you love me now, don't wait until I'm dead and gone You knew I loved you, won't you give me just another chance You telling me that me and you should stick to being friends Telling myself on how I'll never fall in love again They never realize all the damage that they caused within You knew it hurt me just to see you leaving me behind You said you needed space, but I know that's a fucking lie My mind keep telling me that you done fucked another guy Done wrong too many times, they got me fucking traumatized Is it me? Yeah Is it me Is it me? Yeah Is it me Tell me what I did wrong, what I did wrong Can you please tell me what I did Is it me? Yeah Is it me I never imagined that I'd say this to you You have to know though, that I didn't plan for this I never meant to hurt you I never meant to fall out of love with you Because I truly did love you I still do But not in the same way Not in the way that would make it fair for me to stay I'm sorry things couldn't stay the same Maybe we can be friends again someday One day But anyway, I was just calling to say That I hope you're okay