Nothingness

This lifelong illness Has left me insecure Fight it so violently Emotion sickness Without a cure Suffer silently Staring through empty eyes Wide awake in a suicidal state In despair Life's not fair The smell of death in the air In the air Happiness Is hard to find Here in my head In distress Losing my mind Close my eyes and play dead Staring through empty eyes Wide awake in a suicidal state In despair Life's not fair The smell of death is in the air In the air In my own prison Sentenced to life Of nothingness