I Grieve Too

These are the moments you can't type out There ain't a word I know that could speak as loud Because the body remembers and her body is gone Years so short, legs so long On the corner of whatever and Princess Street Suicide tracks and the marks they leave Says "you wanna get out?" I said "I do indeed I just can't catch a break, can't move my feet" History breeds foiled kings And laundry rooms that mean Everything I didn't know him well but it hurts the same Relativity is the root of pain Thought I knew it all, then the season changed I recognize the place, can't face the name Aren't there flowers here and snowflakes there? Every rhyme's gotta end, just tell me where Self inflicted, natural, or tragically Holy ghosts that we don't see You waited the tables, I waited the rain Umbrella up, your heart for my name But honoring words is a troubling thing When your brother still asks you repeatedly "Is this the end? Is this all there is?" I've always been sad but now I'm scared Us trees tend to shed our prettiest leaves Say I'll lose you myself so I can't grieve