Some Place Else

You always said I could stand to say less Like you'd rather be talking to someone else But ain't it just us to light a cigarette Knowing it's bad for our health I took a champagne bottle to the neck Stumbled around acting heaven sent My vision blurred from it My fists were clenched And to the thin air explaining myself I never understood your heart attacks But I learned them front to back You said you'd love me til your deathbed So why do you keep sleeping someplace else The parts of you that make me hate myself Are the parts of you I can't resent Now I curse each and every failed attempt To keep on breathing in your breath I never pushed away when you pulled me in Your dizzy room It all just spins I punch the clock, weigh the odds Stop the earth 'cause I want off I thin my blood, heart's bereft Thought I died the day you left But I did the dishes, paid the rent And here I sit still living Couldn't give up my ghost So now I live with yours An alarming lull I can't ignore I crack my compass when I'm feeling bored Am I just some painted whore I bruise my skin, stones and sticks Stop the earth, I'm feeling sick You're a carnival stub I kept Swear I died the day you left But I filed taxes, called some friends And here I sit still living And still spinning I never understood your heart attacks But I learned them front to back You said you'd love me til your deathbed But you keep on sleeping someplace else Why do you keep sleeping someplace else