Portals

I was feeling anhedonic on a late night Contemplating all the things I did in daylight Shooting texts read the lines I hid in plain sight Thought nobody cared cried for rain nothing made right Sliced flesh frustration led to aimless wails I tried to finish but it ended with a tucked tail A fucked tale had me sitting in the hospital Nurses looking down they don't know I got this hot spittle I'm not brittle Self Luh had me feeling restful I ran too much and pandered such needed to clear my schedule 75 South Lex is where I twisted metal Another sign to slow it down ease off of the pedal Lotus petals, grabba hot, hot tea on the kettle Palo santo, sage, and Nag Champa keep me settled Dettol cleanses all my lenses I see clearer Finally opened up a portal through the mirror I kiss the blood like Sam goddamn I don't wanna keep bleeding F*ck these thoughts got me fleeting Seeing a side I can barely reach through Plain view of my heart and soul I'm turning the void whole I'm churning feelings of uncertainty deep in my stomach The thought of numbness makes my heart plummet Slowly but surely I decline the invitation What's the point of feeling nothing I'd rather be in a hole