Midnight

Man I've been trying to make it off being real alone And count my blessings before it blow it all I don't know at all where we go from here But the lord knows that I ain't scared Was a ghetto kid. now I'm ghetto grown Man I've been down so long, the stories getting old Shit, I never thought I'd make it home again But I been wrong about a lot of things, Ya In the darkest hours of the coldest nights On the longest day of my fucking life I always found a light cause I've been there Spent a long time trying to compare This life I have to some normal shit That I only ever see on a TV set You ever wonder what it's like in a poor kid's head? Well, I guess this is it Never thought about a word I said Until someone told me I was helping kids Now most days I can barely lift a pen 'Cause I'm scared as hell I'm gonna hurt someone with it Man I don't even know who the f*ck I am and shit Ya'll still look to me for this Hard to sleep at night Got shit running through my mind I've been thinking over time About my people left behind If I could do it one more time I'd change it all for you to smile Maybe then you'd see the light Maybe then we'd be alright I've been battling demons that don't have a face running my whole life but staying in place Never wanted it all I just need a taste I don't pray to god 'cause I don't have the patience Take me with you, I'm tired of waiting This place is more than I can fucking manage Self-medicating, in a housing basement Wasting time trying to fight my anger Don't hear no pity, no fear no evil When I meet the reaper we'll speak as equals On the gravel roads where the river meets you I'm a poster child for the broken people I was supposed to lose but I chose not to It took a while but I've come back to Prove to everyone what a young king would do Given half a chance and not a thing to lose It's hard to sleep at night Got shit running through my mind I've been thinking over time About my people left behind If I could do it one more time I'd change it all for you to smile Maybe then you'd see the light Maybe then we'd be alright I wanna wash my hands of this anxiety All this attitudes got me feeling things Like nobody is real in this snake pit A lot of people doing fake shit I don't want the crown man keep the ring I'm older now the hat fits different The real talking starts to hit different Don't bother speaking when they won't listen Now all these scars I got start to mean something Dues are paid and then some Still working harder than I've ever have Trying to be the teacher that I've never had But who am I to try and change things? I'm just another asshole with opinions Just another asshole trying to change things But maybe we could if you gave me the chance We could walk out this door and just never look back We could take all our problems and air this place out With smiles on our faces and bags in the trunk Ride into the sunset like nobody does We got lots of love but were down on our luck You could pack your whole life in the back of a truck Just don't ever let em tell you when to stop Don't ever tell em you're about to drop Most your friends are waiting for the flop But some would love to see you at the top They're the ones you need to hold onto They're the ones who wanna grow with you Ride together till the day's through Ain't shit to lose but there's a lot to prove Just stick a move Just stick a move Don't cut no corners Just stick a move Shit to lose but there's a lot to prove