carcass

I'm supposed to be happy But the artwork painted on the skin of my hands has faded in a way I would never understand Stare me down like I deserve it Looking down like I can't earn it Everybody's looking down on me I can feel it A thousand eyes don't matter when there's no 500 smiles And even if there are, I still feel I haven't proven far enough But I guess that's how it goes When the voices on the radio don't stop But I wanna try to do a little bit better Do a little bit better But I couldn't prove it then And I couldn't prove it now And it's eating me alive I'm so done Frustrated Why do you put everything into a zero-sum? You wanna fight but I wanna fly Wanna die before I even try I fucking know I've gotten far Taken time to do it right Perfected my craft And you know what makes me laugh? 500 smiles don't matter When there's flaws I can't control And even if there are How the f*ck does that prove I can't be able? Keep on pushing Keep on fighting When my hatred never stops Keep on making Keep creating When the feeling never stops Why can't they see the paint before it's washed away But I guess that's how it goes When the voices on the radio don't stop But I wanna try to do a little bit better Do a little bit better But I couldn't prove it then And I couldn't prove it now And it's eating me alive I'm so done Frustrated