Overdue

It hurts more when you know that it's true It hurts more when the one doing the hurting is you It hurts more when it's long overdue It hurts less when you acknowledge the mess It hurts less when you failed the test but tried your best It hurts less when you do what you do I never thought that I could feel such pain I thought I was immune to the shame I thought a lot I thought too much almost ruined my name But for a good cause like Hero Killer Stain I was weighing on a lot, pushing 175 And that's none of your business But neither was yours mine I would take it to heart, personally didn't care But it made me feel inferior, it wasn't fair Why must I bare the Responsibility of helping them with their needs What about mine Do I even have some Thought I was moving forward, really stagnant As rare as a dragon, bit beast Spinning high speeds, 150 Losing control, it's getting iffy If I can catch my breath I'll stay sane But first I must accept what can't change It hurts more when you know that it's true It hurts more when the one doing the hurting is you It hurts more when it's long overdue It hurts less when you acknowledge the mess It hurts less when you failed the test but tried your best It hurts less when you do what you do Never had a clue, don't even think I wanted one I was thirsty for knowledge but never wanted none Knew that I could dodge it all until the summer comes But by then I'm getting blasted, water guns Smart enough to know, not enough to do Almost shed tears, quitting Scape Rune Holding onto everything I had trying to make room But not everything's important, think Escape room Trying to escape doom is not easy Something easy and worth it, I can't name three Three things most important: God, family And music need it for my sanity Vanity was a close fourth I'm not proud to say that but don't feel like I had a choice I will voice my truth Honestly I can be most honest with you It hurts more when you know that it's true It hurts more when the one doing the hurting is you It hurts more when it's long overdue It hurts less when you acknowledge the mess It hurts less when you failed the test but tried your best It hurts less when you do what you do