CAN'T EVEN KNOW

Can't even know my life, shit a movie If it ain't guap I'm not concerned, still I got a lot to learn Never fail no money, he told me that shit made his pockets burn Been in jail, still avoiding hell cause there, you gotta burn Stay patient, can't be skipping blessings if it's not your turn Remember I would knock the Firm, AZ, Nas and Foxy Mama cooking gumbo way before he from Brasi I built an empire like Gazi, watch niggas copy Michelin-starred dinners or grab a sandwich from Haji Versace, might pocket the Tyson fight in his silk Pops tried to warn me, stay out of prison, f*ck how you feel I was built, seen blood on the pavement after it spilled Auntie sent me to the store to get milk, almost got killed Seen a Buick, it was tinted, nigga hanging out the window Reminded me of Menace, first instinct was to get low I wasn't the target, but was close enough to see the victim He hopped out, stood over him, and let Jesus kiss him You couldn't see who did it I was like twelve, still in my mind, I got this evil picture I watched him jump back in his car, blow the light, he made a left And I cherish the air, cause niggas they take your breath Homicides left me traumatized Seen mommas cry, still surprised, they ask how I'm alive It's time to slide, the way they died, that shit was out of line Before I run out of this money, I run out of time No more codeine in my soda, I drink alkaline I gotta keep the peace like Martin with a Malcolm mind Shoot a gun with ease, and I can work this scalpel fine Eyes wide watchin for Babylon, white girl we call Caroline Cool with the Nation, couple homies follow Farrakhan I lost homies, I'll never get back, before I had a song Before I wrote a record, overstressing my holy blessings Copped the whole collection, out of service, I got no connection No self possession, smoke the essence, they quote these lessons Talk and quote me stretching, dead presidentials like Hova's Lexus Them homicides left me traumatized Seen mamas cry, still surprised, asked how I'm alive It's time to slide, the way they died, that shit was out of line Before I run out of this money, I run out of time Before I run out of this money, I run out of time Before I run out of this money, I run out of time Bottom line Left me traumatized Never be the same Them homicides left me traumatized, I promise Never get em back"