So Confusing

I feel cursed my nigga I know a hundred niggas my age and older Got they niggas around, know what I'm sayin'? Shit different, man Uh, my heart done got so cold tryna make a way (cold) You gotta keep it rollin' That's what they would say (rollin') I been searchin' for the strength Just livin' day-to-day (that all) Trapper to rapper, don't matter I'm tryna make a play (let's go) You never know how life gon' hit you Until you live it Can't be talkin' about the shit you 'bout to do 'Til you did it (go do it) Lawyer good Nigga might'a did it, but he got acquitted On the court you can't just be travellin' You know you gotta pivot (ooh) Dreamin' of a speedboat Smokin', havin' conversations with niggas that need coke Half of y'all never seen broke (never seen it) I've seen my whole life flash in a minute (flash) Nightmares, scared to sleep, thought I was actually in it (red lights) It's so confusin', felt like I was winnin' Just to find out I was losin' (losin') We ain't know no better If we could sell it, we gon' move it Tired of tattin' homies In my mind I'm 'bout to lose it (lose it) Came up with a plan We got some grams and started boomin' (boom) Tell me you love me but you hate me It's so confusin' Made it out and we still ain't get to live It's so confusin' (so confusin') I gotta get a dollar just so it ain't no confusion (gotta get a dollar) Smokin' 'til it's hard to breathe My lungs prolly polluted I know he only seventeen But he prolly gon' shoot it (I know) I talk about shit they never seen I know it might confuse 'em My thoughts' deeper than most I prolly lose 'em, cross that line we gotta boom him (boom) He ratted, seen the paperwork Can't treat him like I knew him (I didn't know him) It was hard to see the stars if he was sleepin' in the sewer Smokin' gas, car smellin' like BP (BP) Walkin' in the club, we look like 3D No entourage, just three deep Imagine takin' trips, riskin' it all to pick a bag up (everythin') You know you goin' to jail when they call backup I'd rather my freedom, smokin' good and runnin' these racks up Champagne spillin' in the bathtub I don't give a f*ck, I get mad love (mad love) Shooter told me strap up Go to war 'bout it if you have to Why you got the answers, we ain't ask you Before I ever had a co-defendant I would tax you When you in the field you could get tackled Shit forever like a tattoo (forever) It's so confusin', felt like I was winnin' Just to find out I was losin' (I lost) We ain't know no better If we could sell it, we gon' move it (uh) Tired of tattin' homies (I'm tired) In my mind I'm 'bout to lose it Came up with a plan We got some grams and started boomin' Tell me you love me but you hate me It's so confusin' (why?) Made it out and we still ain't get to live (my niggas) It's so confusin' I gotta get a dollar just so it ain't no confusion It's so confusin' (so confusin'), felt like I was winnin' Just to find out I was losin' (yeah) We ain't know no better If we could sell it, we gon' move it Tired of tattin' homies In my mind I'm 'bout to lose it (lose it) Came up with a plan We got some grams and started boomin' (uh) Tell me you love me but you hate me It's so confusin' (why you do that?) Made it out and we still ain't get to live It's so confusin' I gotta get a dollar just so it ain't no confusion (so it ain't no confusion)