Contradiction

(Yeah, Workplace) I spoke to an angel, she told me to keep my head up I told her, “Don’t worry ‘bout me, I’m working on getting my rep up” “But Dave, you’re just too preppy” “Nah, nigga, I’m just irregular” “If I don’t make a difference then these streets’ll be the death of us” Contemplating, making connections with different sources Sell this weed or abort Find a host to extort I’ve been dealing with leaches ever since I moved down to fourth and Burleigh Slipped between, her thighs In a city where everyone says, “Get out.” But can’t show you a fucking exit I tread a path of deception, got no one to break this bread with Alone, but surrounded Drowning in my depression Diamonds everywhere I step as I melted underneath this pressure Thought backwards about these Gods and thought godly about myself You can keep your contributions I ain’t ask for your fucking help Took the loss of my first love to get some shit straight through my head I took a bottle full of pills and a rope around my neck Ten toes down as I’m swinging And to myself I confess Your death’ll be seen as weakness Collapsing underneath all the stress Ten toes down as I’m swinging My death’ll be seen as weakness I like, good girls but fucking with bad women I know that shit’s contradicting I’m hoping that I’ll forget ‘em The moment this Henny sink in Carry round their heart pieces She said she loved me this weekend But truly I don’t believe her, I don’t- see it ‘Cause seeing makes you believe in Second chances, to me is like getting stabbed and you bleed As she kisses you on the cheek She swears that she didn’t mean it but now you’ve been too depleted to find the love that you seek Ten toes down as I’m swinging And to myself I confess Your death’ll be seen as weakness Collapsing underneath all the stress Ten toes down as I’m swinging My death’ll be seen as weakness