My Garden

It’s more so that I hate the way that I am Sensitive f*ck, how the weight of a hand Could prevent me from wanting to wade through the sands Quick to envelope as it understands That even when close she would slip through my hands Love how this shit never goes as we planned There be an ocean of fears where I lay But my body rests under pillars of sand Anxiety tells me that we need more love The depression inside said that he needs more cups We just need blades and the warmth of a tub I overthink as my body grows numb I start to sleep, water turns to rose buds This is my Garden of Eden Show me the fruit and I swear I won’t eat it I start to sleep, water turns to rose buds This is my Garden of Eden Show me the fruit and I swear I won’t eat it For I am the one true deceiver I went through hell trying to combat my demons Came back with horns like,” Whose side was defeated?” Bury me now under six feet of cement My life is pointless, I can’t find a reason to leave My Garden of Eden Show me the fruit and I swear I won’t eat it For I am the one true deceiver I went through hell trying to combat my demons Came back with horns like,” Whose side was defeated?” Bury me now with the roots of my evil Ice in a glass that’s half empty I feel like I’m melting They treat me like coal, put me under this pressure Cause falling in love was my antidepressant Now falling in love is what roots my depression Been there and done that I love how she falls back Don’t know why I still go through all that Lightbulb, I should put a hole through my ball cap Hype songs, hold me for a moment then I fall flat Life is a bitch, don’t pick up and won’t call back Watch as I trip and pray nobody saw that Blood leaves my lips but he can’t put his jaw back Blade on my hip but this fight don’t involve that But poorly committed I leave my rendition of loyalty Praying that we’re more than friends But until then I’ll overthink, water turns to rose buds This is my Garden of Eden Show me the fruit and I swear I won’t eat it For I am the one true deceiver I went through hell trying to combat my demons Came back with horns like,” Whose side was defeated?” Bury me now under six feet of cement My life is pointless, I can’t find a reason to leave My Garden of Eden Show me the fruit and I swear I won’t eat it For I am the one true deceiver Came back with horns like,” Whose side was defeated?” Bury me now with the roots of my evil