Not Ready

You've got a hold on me that I can't seem to break And you get more of me with every hit I take Thought I was done with you but you came back around You took the walls I built and burned them to the ground But I'm not ready, to give into you Or let you control me, the way that you do And I've seen what you offer, and it's always the same One minute of pleasure, for a lifetime of pain This time, this time I'm done with you Yes I'll go, I'll go from ashes to being new Taste you in the morning, and crave you late at night I gave you everything without even a fight I snuff you out and then I take you in again It's always me who ends up suffering in the end Cause I'm not ready, to give into you Or let you control me, the way that you do And I've seen what you offer, and it's always the same One minute of pleasure, for a lifetime of pain And I'm, I am so I'm done with you Yeah this time, I'll go from ashes to being new The smell that's on my clothes reminds me you were here And in my darkest times you'll always reappear One day I'll break the chains that you have always held Or I will light the match and send myself to hell Cause I'm not ready, to give into you Or let you control me, the way that you do And I've seen what you offer, and it's always the same One minute of pleasure, for a lifetime of pain But this time, time I'm done with you Yes I've gone, I've gone from ashes to being new