The Second Option

Why'd they treat me like a kid up in adoption? Why'd they treat me like a painting in an auction? In my life, they were always just a toxin Why'd they treat me like I'm a second option? If it's sooner or it's later, I just know they'll pay their dues They'll come back into my life when they see me on the news If I'm big or if I'm dead, one of those is their excuse When I'm bringing out my wallet, it's when I know that they'll seduce To every single one, I was always just another To the dancer and the cancer that I met back in summer I know one day they'll both be back, but there's that one girl, a runner She's the only one who's different, cause she's helping me recover But the rest, f*ck them, I don't know why I feel sorry The alcoholic could've had me but instead she chose Bacardi I know I took an L, I know I'm not the next Lombardi But they'll all be coming back when they see me with a Rarri When their mans leave and he cheats I won't be the guy they used to send streaks I'll be the guy who says that they're for the streets But I won't be the guy who starts to taste defeat I don't know why I'm still getting mixed emotions I don't know why people say that I write poems I don't know why people tell me that my really sad story is just a way of trying to give myself promotions Why'd they treat me like a kid up in adoption? Why'd they treat me like a painting in an auction? In my life, they were always just a toxin Why'd they treat me like I'm a second option? If it's sooner or it's later, I just know they'll pay their dues They'll come back into my life when they see me on the news If I'm big or if I'm dead, one of those is their excuse When I'm bringing out my wallet, it's when I know that they'll seduce I don't want it any other way I don't wanna think about them any other day I don't wanna leave, go to any other place I'm staying in the middle, not in black and white, I'm gray All the feelings that I feel, I just want this pain to heal Take the chips in poker because I don't wanna deal I didn't give them love so that they can go and steal But everything we had, was it ever even real? They remember last time that we talked When we ended being friends, and they told me "take a walk" I remember every day Even though I moved to college about a hundred miles away Even though I know they're gone I always feel they're gonna stay But maybe I'm wrong I thought I could go right past it And I thought I moved on But I didn't Cause now I'm thinking bout them all over again But the more I think about it, man they're not even tens Why'd they treat me like a kid up in adoption? Why'd they treat me like a painting in an auction? In my life, they were always just a toxin Why'd they treat me like I'm a second option? If it's sooner or it's later, I just know they'll pay their dues They'll come back into my life when they see me on the news If I'm big or if I'm dead, one of those is their excuse When I'm bringing out my wallet, it's when I know that they'll seduce