The Hardest Thing

The hardest thing I've ever had to do Was disappear from view, and leave this all behind The hardest thing I've ever had to face Was someone in my place and running out of time It's not like I'm looking for an easy way out No need for sympathy, don't want no free rides There's just so much of this that I could do without But it seemed much easier to keep it all inside I know I've got a way to go, but the way I go is up to me I know I've got a road to choose but win or lose, it's up to me It's up to me.... The hardest thing I've ever had to see Was staring back at me, reflecting what I've done The hardest thing I've ever had to say Were thoughts that slipped away and words that never come It's not like I'm thinking, I'm owed anything I find no dignity hanging on a cross I own the past and all the justice it brings But I made it through, 'cause I mourned the loss at all costs I know I've got a way to go, but the way I go is up to me I know I've got a road to choose but win or lose, it's up to me It's up to... Me in my own time With a greater will than mine And I've held on so But it only worked when I let it go It's not like I'm looking for an easy out But I made it through, 'cause I mourned the loss at all costs I know I've got a way to go, but the way I go is up to me I know I've got a road to choose but win or lose, it's up to me It's up to me