Old Me

I miss you, don't wanna sit in silence I miss you, don't wanna sit in silence Silence, oh, oh, no, no Oh, oh, oh, no Lately sittin' in silence cause all the pain I write it Inner demons been different so I don't even fight it Heavy on me like Pelle feelings been undecided Anger takin' over my actions, hope I don't get indicted Ain't here to preach, I'm just givin' a message Tryna balance out my thoughts, it's like I'm playin' with Tetris Don't need no pity, hope you hear me, I don't speak for acceptance Just tryna learn to keep my head high Cause if I look down at the ground, might f*ck around and pick it up, aim with that dead eye Show that I be cool, but to myself know that's a dead lie Lost two of my brothers, kept me sane, but I can't even cry Hopin', wish and pray they keep me sane somehow right from the sky Physically and mentally been shakin' up, callin' on the Lord But seem that call just steady breakin' up, to y'all it's a surprise Look in my eyes, you see demise, cause all the shit I'm tryna hide I put aside, let it ride and sip what's in my cup Sometimes miss that old me, that never gave a f*ck What he went through, that shit be cool, won't never fold me One thing I regret and wish I had somebody told me Is I don't need no love to make shit happen by my lonely So f*ck it, from this point if we don't vibe, then I'm goin' ghost Don't need explanations, ain't no patience when you do the most F*ck a validation, my foundation not from makin' posts The ones who show me love, I keep 'em close I miss that old me I miss you, don't wanna sit in silence I miss you, don't wanna sit in silence Yeah, I miss that old me Oh, oh, no, no Yeah, I miss that old me Oh, oh, no, no Look, heart been gettin' cold Feel it in my soul that I've been in that mode In that mode to go and, run it up and chase a check Steppin' on these niggas necks Pay me my respect, cause if you don't, that mean you get it next Pain showers turn to plenty hours, I don't feel the same Tryna recollect how far I came and how I made a name I always said I'm different in this shit and yeah, I could explain But f*ck it, I just lay it in these verses just to keep me tame They don't know what I be thinkin', they don't know about my emotions People say they get me, but they don't it take a magic potion Feel I need to get away, relaxin' sitting by the ocean Feel I need a get away from people tryna get me coachin Love has been a virtue for some reason, hatred always givin Guess that shit it happen, people lack in motivation, livin I can't never lack, look in the mirror and that's my only vision Know I got myself, so ain't no trip to makin' life decisions I miss you, don't wanna sit in silence Yeah, yeah, I miss that old me I miss you, don't wanna sit in silence Yeah, I miss that old me Oh, oh, oh, no Yeah, uh, I miss that old me Oh, oh, oh, no