Victim (Alternate Version)

I am sitting on my bed and can't forget Can no longer move and I feel a bit offset I ask myself how could it come so far And I wonder, what we still are I turn to the side, blood pouring out of me It's my own fault, I suffer from my agony I will never forget you, because you my fantasy I stare at my gut shot, pure absurdity, disharmony I ignore the time that passes by (I feel alive) Ignore the mumbling in my mind (You'll never make it, kid) I'm the victim of myself I ignore the time that passes by I'm the victim of myself Ignore the mumbling in my mind The victim of myself With every breath I take, the world goes black And every time I look at you, but you're never looking back My mind is playing with me, I can't see clearly I have failed, it nearly kills me Again I turn around, the blood is pouring out Yes, I'm to blame, but that's what it's all about I could never forget you, because you are my fantasy Still have a few minutes, pure absurdity, disharmony I ignore the time that passes by (I feel alive) Ignore the mumbling in my mind (You'll never make it, kid) I'm the victim of myself I ignore the time that passes by I'm the victim of myself Ignore the mumbling in my mind The victim of myself I am lying, in a corner Still bleeding, no border I would like to, finally hold her My blood grows, colder n' colder I ignore the time that passes by (I feel alive) Ignore the mumbling in my mind (You'll never make it, kid) I'm the victim of myself I ignore the time that passes by I'm the victim of myself Ignore the mumbling in my mind The victim of myself The victim of myself