Gnawing Hunger and Thirst

I arrived, I'm where I wanted to be Though I thought I'd feel more free And with peace I could finally relax And there'd be no more of the panic attacks I bought in, I paid the price I'm cold-blooded with veins of ice Success was sweet at first But I'm left with a gnawing hunger and thirst It's strange how things turn out When you never wonder what it's all about The focus, it will make you blind To all the good that you left behind I bought in, I paid the price I'm cold-blooded with veins of ice Success was sweet at first But I'm left with a gnawing hunger and thirst Some thoughts I had to bury so deep But they would arise in the quiet of sleep The dream, it became a nightmare And when I awake it's just as I feared It's so empty, devoid of life Relief at best, but not true delight Sweet at first, bitter with time And always that incessant need to climb