Just a Bitter Pill (feat. Chris K)

14 Years old and I'd had enough The final day had come to call my bluff 24 Hours of this life was too much They said that I would never be up to snuff On that fateful day when I came home from school Opened the pillbox and I broke the rules Took the deadly cocktail to my room Swallowed every damn pill and prayed for my doom My father was too poor for white My mother black and too polite So I grew up on the outside with no identity Haters told me that I was worthless And I believed them So I left no note no goodbyes God can you hear me I'm coming to you side There's too much pain over here Please forgive me but I'm tired I know I'm weak But believe me I have tried Oh yeah death is just a bitter pill away Oh Lord please give me a reason to stay I know that life has ups and downs All these twists and turns I'm about to cause arson and I will let it burn I've been thinking about what's gonna kill me fast A gun, a knife, a pill, man I know the pain can't last I was only 16 when I really felt it hard Strength dashed out of me like it was Mario Kart Cold sweats dripping out of my chest and my thighs If this is the cost of being alive man that's a heavy price I guess that heaven didn't want me God had plans for me Scripted out my life the lead cast of this movie He said, Chris you my glory, priceless jewellery You the type that I take when I want to make history Truth be told the pain is heavy, God I can barely Look myself in the mirror and feel that I am worthy Man I know that it's dark before it's sunny I know that it takes a bee to sting to get that honey I know that if I'm getting gold I'm getting money So I will brace myself and live it up for this journey God can you hear me I'm coming to you side There's too much pain over here Please forgive me but I'm tired I know I'm weak But believe me I have tried Oh yeah death is just a bitter pill away Oh Lord please give me a reason to stay God can you hear me I'm coming to you side There's too much pain over here Please forgive me but I'm tired I know I'm weak But believe me I have tried Oh yeah death is just a bitter pill away Oh Lord please give me a reason to stay