Thoughts I Can't Say Out Loud

These are the thoughts that I can’t say out loud Honest confessions and wandering doubts Land of my day dreams has grey stormy clouds So I don’t let these thoughts out Sometimes I wonder if you’re pretending Sometimes when we kiss I don’t feel a thing Day after day I walk parks in my mind Running from my double life Time stops As you say the words We are not in Love anymore And I fail to Defend what would be a lie We might not last through the night I have learned better than to speak my truth You walk all over the few times I do So I have learned how to get along fine Vacationing in my mind Once we had passionate fire in our eyes Now we watch Netflix depressed side by side We share a couch but we might as well be “Til death do us part” with a screen Time stops As you say the words We are not in Love anymore And I fail to Defend what would be a lie We might not last through the night Time stops As you say the words We are not in Love anymore And I fail to Defend what would be a lie We might not last through the night These were the thoughts that I can’t say out loud Now that I’ve said them I hate how they sound I wanna take back the attacks that I made But now it might be too late