I can't smile anymore

My mother's dead broken heart again And I've got no reason to be happy but I'm alive so I should be I woke up today put a smile on my face but it's hard cause I'm lonely All of this really scares me And no matter how hard I try I can't smile anymore what should I smile for I'm done with that shit I'm done with it I don't want love anymore It's not what life is for I'm done with that shit I'm done with it I wake up and dread the day ahead Cause I know I'll break again from a text and not her saying it I'm feeling grey the rain is my place I've come to love it cause I'm lonely When I'm there it doesn't scare me And no matter how hard I try I can't smile anymore what should I smile for I'm done with that shit I'm done with it I don't want love anymore It's not what life is for I'm done with that shit I'm done with it I'm done with