Guilt (feat. Jason Medina)

Your Words cut deep deeper than Any blade Lately I've been in this lone state Contemplating my mistakes The mistakes I've made along the way Tho they made me who I am today I still regret a lot of things I said I lied to you I failed you I'm tired of how I'm living I'm sick of all the sinning I'm the worst of them all Full of flaws Why they looking at me with admiration For inspiration? You're the only friend I've ever had When I feel sad You seem to wipe the tear for my eyes I've let you down I accept it if you don't want to deal With me now Still I ain't got anyone else All I'm trying to say is forgive me Forgive me for the times I was unfaithful Times I made promises Didn't keep em I was ungrateful Times I lied to get away with things Cause I knew you'd forgive me cAuse You're graceful Times I doubted you when I prayed And didn't receive the answer On how I wanted Times I failed my parents Times I said I'd change but didn't In the process When I thought you abandoned me Times I thought you didn't care for me Times I hurt the people who really care Bout me Words can't explain how I feel right now I just feel guilty please forgive me I just feel guilty please forgive me My mind is a factor With squares and octagonal Puzzles connected And each section is Carved with a message Whether it's mistakes Good and bad memories all trisected Dig a little deeper Theres a secret box with commandments Go a little higher there's a box With my imperfections The section where a lot of us Like to hang in If you could live my life If you could See with these eyes If you could feel my pain It's insane I am in A lot of pain it's painful All I want is to make you happy And really I am thankful I need you right now I'm at the lowest point of my life I'm losing my mind I'm losing my time Tryna to acquire a new piece of mind I know I know I haven't been honest Maybe I deserve it That's why I'm asking for your forgiveness So I can have a clean conscience Sickened of waking up dead All this burden all this weight I'm just a human with too much stress Too much mess Trying to be the best i can be I just fail in the process I haven't been me lately But I promise plainly You'll always see the best of me Bravely I'm sorry for the pain Please remove this chain From my brain Words can't explain how I feel right now I just feel guilty please forgive me I just feel guilty please forgive me The last thing I need is to Hold on to this guilt Imma tear this house of Accusations I built Past is meant to stay in the past Can't look go forward while looking back Your mercy is all I need I need I promise please intercede fo me I'm Sick of all this pain I bleed It's what makes me I Ain't ashamed to accept that I'm weak I tend to be strong When I hit my knees Instead of my feet So Forgive me for all the things That I did Words can't explain how I feel right now I just feel guilty please forgive me I just feel guilty please forgive me