Poison

So sure The irony of that is making me laugh Kinda So sure I know what is true So I should know what to do What to do I need my My head and heart To not be so far apart Cause they rarely agree When the pressure is on I say I trust You But do I really trust You Seems like The irony of this Is making me miss You God Seems like I can lie to myself Better then anyone else That i know caught in my own undertow And it wont let me go Cause I made it myself With the poison I choked down And I really don't want it But I really do want it I keep on sipping on the poison You are the honey on the vine I turn my Beauty into ashes You turn the water into wine I keep hating what I do but I love it I keep loving what I do but I hate it Cause I don't really know who to be Can you please take this cup from me