i'm tired

Up late, up again Crying in my bed Thoughts racing through My mind (hm,mmm) Wishing i could leave it All behind (hm,mmm) Wishing i could Let it all shine (shine) What was i made for? What was i thinking? Maybe this isn't my path Maybe this ain't my route No energy (no energy) No remedy (hm,mmm) Watching everyone pass by With a smile on their face Maybe one day They'll see (they'll see) What i truly can be (Truly can be) And maybe one day One day i'll be able To get it out (yeah) I'm tired of pretending That everything's fine Wearing a smile while I'm breaking inside Somedays i'll be ok Somedays i'll be fine But right now Right now i'm not (i'm not) I'm tired of pretending That you aren't my friend Where did the time go? When did those days end? (Yeah) Pushing away everyone That i love (hm,mmm) Pushing away the people That truly care (yeah) What is wrong with me? (Wrong with me) What is my problem? (My problem) I know i've messed up But that doesn't mean That it was all my fault (It's not my fault) (Ah-Ah-Ah) (Ah-Ah-Ah) Should've token the chance To say what i needed to say But you got your way Yeah i'm tired of pretending That everything's fine (Yeah) I'm tired of pretending That everythings ok I think i'm losing it Think i'm crushing it (Yeah) I've been around Over and over So many words But i can't seem to Get one out (one out) I'm sorry i'm not What you wanted I'm sorry that i wasn't What you needed but I really had high hopes For this (for this) I really gave my all For this (hm,hm) I really gave my Love away for this (Ah-ah) Now i'm sitting down Tryna clear my mind I'm tired of being here Already (already) I'm tired of this fake Love that i had I'm tired of the fake Friendships that i'm in Why is it always me? Why is always this hard? Why is always my fault? Why can't i be with the stars? (Be with the stars) I'm tired of pretending That everything's fine Wearing a smile while I'm breaking inside Somedays i'll be ok Somedays i'll be fine But right now Right now i'm not (i'm not) I'm tired of pretending That you aren't my friend Where did the time go? When did those days end? (Yeah) Pushing away everyone That i love (hm,mmm) Pushing away the people That truly care (yeah) What is wrong with me? (Wrong with me) What is my problem? (My problem) I know i've messed up But that doesn't mean That it was all my fault (It's not my fault) (Ah-Ah-Ah) (Ah-Ah-Ah) Should've token the chance To say what i needed to say But you got your way Yeah i'm tired of pretending That everything's fine (Yeah) I'm tired of pretending That everythings ok