on my own

I can't even tell If this is fake or real (Mhm) But i just wanted To say i'm to hard to Deal with (with) And i know That i'm going blind But i saw every sign Of you switching up on me (Yeah) I get you,it's tough when People judge your social life Heartbreak adds to another layer People think they know my vibe But they can't see what's Truly inside I'm just waiting to melt down To my final breath (Huh) And i'm just waiting to Melt down to my last one yet (Hm) Yeah God i really wish You could help me But i'm doing this shit On my own and it's not healthy (Not healthy) I don't care about my time I'm stuck in my head with rhymes And i'm just sick of healing (healing) Call me selfish (selfish) Call me useless (useless) I'm just tryna grow Without hating the process Yeah Call me crazy (crazy) Call me stupid (stupid) But all i wanna do is Grow without hating The process (Hating the process) Looking in the mirror Looking at something different (hm) Looking at something that is Just so unclear (yeah) I can't see myself In a couple years I'm drowning in my tears I'm hiding from my fears I'm searching for the light In this darkness i reside Trying to find my way Back to the person that i Used to be inside Am i who i say i am Am i who they think I should be, no Cause Everyday is the same Everyday i'm in pain Think i'm going insane Think i'm going to be ok But i'm never sure how Everything will still be the same Shit gets harder day by day I'm doing all the fucked up Shit on my own Gotta take it day by day They say (they say) Is it true or is it a lie They just wanna Kill my vibe (my vibe) Always hiding inside I swear i can't be myself Without the judgement (Judgement) Guess i'm just growing On my own (yeah) Guess i'm just Doing all the hardships On my own Yes i'm lonely inside But i guess that's how I'll truly be forever (mhm) I guess that's how It'll be for a while (hm) Yeah Maybe one day I'll be able to Think back to today And saw how great I've changed (changed) And maybe one day I'll be alright , ok God i really wish You could help me But i'm doing this shit On my own and it's not healthy (Not healthy) I don't care about my time I'm stuck in my head with rhymes And i'm just sick of healing (healing) Call me selfish (selfish) Call me useless (useless) I'm just tryna grow Without hating the process Yeah Call me crazy (crazy) Call me stupid (stupid) But all i wanna do is Grow without hating The process (Hating the process) On my own I'm on my own I'm just tryna Grow On my own (own) (Yeah,yeah,yeah)