suicidal

In the silence of the night I'm drowning in my tears Lost in a world of darkness Consumed by all my fears Every breath feels heavy Like a weight upon my chest Searching for a glimmer of hope A moment of rest (of rest) Wishing i could've been loud But i'm too silent to talk Wishing i could hear my screams But i feel like even if I do No one would care (would care) In the darkest corners Of my soul's abyss I confront the shadows That i can't dismiss But within the depths A fire starts to ignite Burning away the fears Revealing my inner light Can't stop time I'm drowning deeper Than ever (than ever) I'm drowning farther down Than ever (than ever) Farther down than ever Yeah I'm only trying I'm only trying Trying,trying I'm only trying I'm only trying Trying,trying I'm only trying I'm only trying Trying,trying Yeah Said i'm only trying,trying Said i'm only lying,lying Said i can't get out,get out Said i can't get in,get in I'm using the blade I wanna cut it deeper I wanna cut it off (it off) I'm sorry for thinking This way but therapy Wasn't the fucking way (Fucking way) Oh i'm suicidal It's been like this for a while It's been like this for a Minute now (minute now) I can't believe how Fast the time goes How fast the line flows Suicidal (suicidal) Yeah In the silence of the night I'm the one by my side I'm ashamed of myself I'm disappointed in my Actions sometimes Yeah I'm not ok (ok) My mind feels like It's been trapped And i can't get it out (it out) I'm not ok I'm not alright I've felt his way Ever since my uncle died Shit i can't even imagine A life without my grandpa Shit i cant imagine (I can't imagine) A life like this at all My demons are hollering (Hollering) There callikg in the dead of Night but i I'm only trying I'm only trying Trying,trying I'm only trying I'm only trying Trying,trying I'm only trying I'm only trying Trying,trying Yeah Said i'm only trying,trying Said i'm only lying,lying Said i can't get out,get out Said i can't get in,get in I'm using the blade I wanna cut it deeper I wanna cut it off (it off) I'm sorry for thinking This way but therapy Wasn't the fucking way (Fucking way) Oh i'm suicidal It's been like this for a while It's been like this for a Minute now (minute now) I can't believe how Fast the time goes How fast the line flows Suicidal (suicidal) Yeah Yeah Yeah Are these drugs worth it Is this alcohol for it Yeah Yeah I'm only trying my best I can't go on with no rest I don't know what to do with Myself (self) Yeah myself Said i'm only trying,trying Said i'm only lying,lying Said i can't get out,get out Said i can't get in,get in I'm using the blade I wanna cut it deeper I wanna cut it off (it off) I'm sorry for thinking This way but therapy Wasn't the fucking way (Fucking way) Oh i'm suicidal It's been like this for a while It's been like this for a Minute now (minute now) I can't believe how Fast the time goes How fast the line flows Suicidal (suicidal) Yeah