Like An Earthquake

I took the vow I spoke it silently It drags me down Each day it sickens me I took the bait I took it happily It keeps me great It's here right next to me I understand I get the mystery This was not the plan But I chose differently I lost the score Looks like a tie to me Just shut the door Let's say goodbye to me It feels like an earthquake Tearing through my heart It shakes me every day And I know now the first time Was really just the last There's something in the way