Who am I speaking to

High up or down below, might end up nowhere. I wish there's guidance, teach me how to go there. How should I close my eyes when there is gold here. Don't know that if it's dark or bright, close my eyes yeah. Tears streaming down my heart. (oh ooah) Tastes something like it's raw. (oh ooah) Castaway feels like floating but trapped in somewhere, there's nobody, just nothing. Neverending might be double sided, concerning if, (Ay) I cannot love anybody, but nobody's here. (Ay) Castaway feels like floating but trapped in somewhere, there's nobody just nothing. Children, always laughing like it's different. Which you can't find inside me. Listen, that's all I ask for every person, but here alone again I'm -