About Last Night (feat. Joewthablow) [Extended Version]

It's 3 o'clock in the morning, and I'm laying up in my bed Maybe I'm overthinking but bad thoughts keep filling my head I feel like I'm not even worth it, like I better off be dead Went to my pops crying that night cause I wished on something bad Couldn't tell him what was on my chest, he said just to pray and wait for the best But that morning I closed my eyes, and I did something that I would regret Looked in the mirror and faced myself, realized I was looking at death itself Looked at my only way out, to free myself Looked at the bottle and popped some pills, thought it would send me up to the Lord Thought I would finally feel complete but I kicked my whole life out of the real world I felt like I wasn't strong, then I realized that I was wrong Tears running down my face, hoping that I'm not gone I'm crying to Jesus Christ, please don't let me be gone yet I'm seeing the light, please, please don't let me be home yet God I'm sorry I cherish, this life that I own Please send my soul back to my body, I promise to carry it home Can't go back now, what's done is done Remember grandma told me that I'm the one The one with a plan to get us all out So I don't do this for the fame or the clout Should've been gone a long time ago Kept going down that long dark road I was addicted still crying for help Now I continue down the road by myself No one knew when I was feeling down Went through the day without showing a frown Now I'm a big game, so give me my crown Stand on all 10, I never slow down YNTO they my real family Might move away but they never left me Plan was Ys and get hit with a beam Shots fired then we leavin the scene Used to be broke, now I ball like Kareem Get out the way bitch, I'm setting the screen Gassin em up so I left em on E Remember them nights it was just me and D YNTO ain't a gang we the team Run up on us and get hit with a beam Living my life like this shit was a dream About last night It ain't what it seems Fucked up as a kid I'm popping medications Popping pills cause you know I'm dedicated Just the beginning, this ain't a revelation Ain't mean to be cruddy, we moving like the hatians Can't hang around niggas cause niggas steady faking I ain't going back cause I seen my mama aching Remember the nights we were trapping out the vacant So many pills, I don't know what I been taking Yeah Uh-huh Yeah Mmm Yeah D-Boy Joewthablow You already know what the f*ck going on though Big YNTO shit Big 21 shit Yeah Get with us or get left