Still Scarred

I shed more tears at birth than I did when my homeboy died Swear I used to feel pain now these days my body just overrides The visions that cross my mind tear me apart when I'm alone at night Picture him bleeding out gasping for air wish I could hold him tight They say it gets better over time it's been months since then I know they lyin It's more like no matter what comes we'll be alright Give us was hard days but I'll survive I came a long way from holding back pain and watching my tears fall These last few months I realized shit can get real dawg I don't tell nobody bout my problems this what I feel dawg I done tried to put patches on my wounds but it won't heal dawg Nah it won't heal dawg nah it won't heal dawg Even if it heal I'm still scarred even if it heal I'm still scarred Still scarred Yeah Brody living life in a grave I can't even ask if he's okay I just take it day by day but why it gotta be this way Some people put they Glocks inside a safe but I can never take it off my waist I'm paranoid so if a nigga play he might end up laying on the pavement I be always giving rarely taking double up my zeros like I'm agent I been trying hard just to make it dreams the only thing worth chasing Chasing dreams no sleep it's almost in reach Sometimes I can't see the things you see in me The things you see in me I know being closed off makes it hard for you to love me If I let you this close then you must be lucky I came a long way from holding back pain and watching my tears fall These last few months I realized shit can get real dawg I don't tell nobody about my problems that's what I feel dawg I done tried to put patches on my wounds but it won't heal dawg Nah it won't heal dawg nah it won't heal dawg Even if it heal I'm still scarred even if it heal I'm still scarred Still scarred