Slurrin'

Bottle up my feelings, can't stay sober Can't call this shit healing, I've been so hurt I can't even eat a meal without my stomach turnin' Just gon' fill it up with drank until my words are Slurrin' I've been all alone, too deep in thought to reach the surface I don't wanna fall, but standing up to sadness too deterrin' But I'm still gon' make it, and I know cause I've been too determined I can't even fake no more, cause I'm the realest man for certain Wake up everyday and look outside, I had to pull the curtain Baked like I'm some Lays, I get the chips, she ask for different purses Better find yo' way and ask about it from a different person I might cop a Calvin Klein, but you can't have no Birkin Try to claim she mine, I left her with a purpose I'm still writin' all these lines about her, some are cursive Proving I can say my rhymes without the extra cursin' You can't see, I'm disguised in plain sight, with some turbulence I could fall right out the sky and still be close to perfect You can be my side-kick, but I don't need a first chick Tried to keep it modest, dug myself up out the dirt pit Cupid already shot me twice, my 2nd wound still hurtin' Bottle up my feelings, can't stay sober Can't call this shit healing, I've been so hurt I can't even eat a meal without my stomach turnin' Just gon' fill it up with drank until my words are Slurrin' I've been all alone, too deep in thought to reach the surface I don't wanna fall, but standing up to sadness too deterrin' But I'm still gon' make it, and I know cause I've been too determined I can't even fake no more, cause I'm the realest man for certain They be on my phone like, "Bro, you changed", but that's just not the case I've been on my own with family, sorry if you can't relate Lunchtime at my Grandma Holle's, meals that you can't get on dates She cook the best salmon, always fills me up with just one plate Going out to different parties, they don't know I'm filled with rage Shoutout to my brother Tommy, got it turnt just like a page Jumpin' off the roof, onto a table goin' up in flames Others think it's new, but that was something from our younger days