Amalgam

All of them is different but low-key they be the same though I'm Running through these bitches feels like fucking with the same hoe Every time it's over feel like what the f*ck I came for So why can't I just go a fucking week without the brain though Focus on the stack, don't look back at people that did you wrong I just wanna back-to-back the platinum plaques up on my wall I hit your homegirl up after we f*ck so she could feel involved Think I've had enough, I still re-up, she call me down the hall I see this whole building as a canvas But I ain't painting with my hands Hold up, let me mind my manners Try to hold me down, I'm still standing Think that I'm her man, she a nail to my hammer I seen a pretty woman cause madness That ain't nothing special, new norm, that's average I seen a pretty woman do some damage Make your eyes roll, make a bland man savage So why do I keep heading over, do the same shit though Maybe for a second, it make me feel like a king though When she call my name and grip the sheets it feed my ego Maybe for a second, feel like I just found a real girl The chosen, the one, the wifey material She blow me for fun like, I don't think this meaningful I like toxic women cause that shit be so familiar I don't wanna do it unless she be giving me the world Healing, but what about the tools that I'm using to do so But what about the girls I'm infusing with new hope Thinking that they got me, I'm up outta there they too slow The demon holding me, he saying, gotta reap what you sow Stemmed from the pain, now I play the games But I am competitive, like we are not the same Who gon' take the blame like, for other shit that ain't right I say I'm gonna change, right, I fucked her on the same night Then she said, huh, aye, we gonna get married, right Then I say, yeah, we might, then I told her, hang tight Gotta get my crack pipe, cause clearly you be talking crazy Acting like you is my lady, A milly you would have to pay me To be a vessel for my baby One of em' taught me lessons and One of em' made me breakfast, then the last one left me breathless And the next one made me restless I'm taking all these bitches and I'm making an amalgam Atoning for my sins, don't know what I'd do without em They made me who I am, but they not something to be proud of I'll do it again, shawty think that she just found love