Douglas

My father looking at me like he can't believe I'm his child Man I was tripping, wouldn't listen, I was getting wild My own homies used to say I need to tone it down My OG told me if I keep on geeking I won't be around Too much longer, I'm dealing with my karma In the form of baby mama drama And a couple patnaz who started faking the funk Hating because they won't Get up off they ass and start making it on Their own So I became the target of all that they hate about themselves It ain't bothering me, I saw the God in me I know my wealth Done helped a couple people couple times I needed help myself Yeah I done slipped up but nah I never fell I done been through hell and back a hundred times I ain't let it break me, maybe once or twice I just had to shake the crazy up out my life They say it costs to be the boss and I'll be damned if I ain't pay the price Late nights Stressing Still counting blessings If it ain't kill me then it had to be a lesson in it But most cases I ain't get it, I was hard headed If you ask me how I beat the odds, I'll tell you God did it I hope that God's willing To forgive me for the sins that I've committed Trying to make it in this life I'm living Graveyard shifting, high noon pitching Hard by the nickels, I was really on a mission Ta get up out the hood for good, yeah I was truly wishing The right set of ears would hear my music and just listen Me and Juice started spitting when he got the keyboard for Christmas And right away we knew that we was different But it ain't happened as fast as I wanted So I went off to the army The shit I've been through to this day it still haunts me And it costs me my sanity, can it be all so simple Shit I put my family through I never meant to and my mental ain't the same From the stress and the strain on the brain From this game that I played for so long Hold on is what they tell me but I feel like letting go And I'm on the verge of breaking like them levees down in N O My kinfolk that used to be ten toes been tripping on me They the ones who switched but let them tell it I'm acting different homie Only God can judge me by my loneliness how I roll Born alone, die alone, come on you know D.O. and yo Lately I've been feeling like I'm failing as a father Can't seem to cease the beef between my son and daughter Man that shit is out of order and I'm losing control On the verge of going crazy man it's draining my soul When it rains it pours, I don't complain I roll With the punches even though they come in bunches I just duck em like it's nothing Even though they come in bunches I just duck em like it's nothing