DESENSITIZED

This my life ima live how I want Do what I can Say what they won't Move as I please Told you hold me down ima provide for yo needs Feed the soil water the plant how I'm protecting my seed They say we living to die Dying to live Who coaching the youth Don't lie to the kids We don't glorify crime we just survive where we live We got desensitized to it barely cried when they killed em I pray for understanding nothing older than wisdom More patience a virtue I been holding my britches Almost quit a few times could've got cataclysmic But my mojo back I'm handling business Naw really like Hov had said I am the business Talks with my accountant they been counting me out I don't know what that's about Shit I stuck to the blueprint beyond reasonable doubt And been at it 10 years it's just now getting clear You show love you barely get it back this shit getting weird You should vent more you rather lend an ear to yo peer You should start thinking of other options the end getting near You should start trusting in God to grab the wheel when you steer Pray for discernment on decisions that you barely can make You need more hobbies too many habits you can't break An idle mind the perfect place for the devil to play Tryna express through rhythm and words I barely get plays I turned my heart away from wickedness I got evil ways But it's a light that shine brightest on my darkest of days I walk by faith not by sight I had to cover my eyes It hurt to see you switch up on me but I wasn't surprised 20 years in the making Most of it spent in the basement it's bout time I arise The duality of man feeling like Jekyll and Hyde Survivors guilt too many died but somehow I'm alive Its my life I gotta live how I want Do what I can Say what they won't Move as I please I told her hold me down ima provide for yo needs I feed the soil water the plant how I'm protecting my seed They say we living to die Dying to live Who coaching the youth Don't lie to the kids We don't glorify crime we just survive where we live We got desensitized to it barely cried when they killed em nigga You show love you barely get it back this shit getting weird You should vent more you rather lend an ear to yo You should start thinking of other options end getting near You should start trusting in God to grab the wheel when you steer nigga Rula