The Dross

This is just me, this is just me No longer hiding what they're going to see I guess that's the reason for why I was idle The way people view me had become my idol The first time I heard this I was in denial I want them to see Jesus, man that was vital The man in the mirror had become my rival Things feel different now The chain round' my neck and my wrist weigh a couple pounds Even though I was heaven bound Materialism had constantly pulled me down It was just like a merry go round Stuck in a circle with no way of getting out That's when I pushed through the crowd Just a touch to say "Lord, I'm ready, I lay down my crown" See when I did that I felt like all these chains broke off, broke off He gave me direction and said, "Now my son, go forth, go forth Stop chasing shadows and fitting in molds no more, no more Trust in my plans, because it was you that I died for, died for I've been surfacing things from under surface Wasn't purposefully running from purpose Applying the blood to these demonic curses An Insurgent for my generation's insurgence Life versus death so I'm using these verses You say I'm worth it, at times I feel worthless Whether I'm ready or not, raise the curtains I think that it's time that I Show you the Dross Show you the Dross A reminder of what I am without the cross All the tears I cried... pain inside I think that it's time that I Show you the Dross Show you the Dross I'm counting my blessings to see what it cost Let the fire rise, burn inside It's time that I testify This is just me No longer hiding what they're going to see Use to look at my dad and think one day that was probably who I would be I'd hear him preach a sermon, take a look at his feet and say those shoes look really big One of the toughest titles I was forced to wear was being a Preacher's kid Ministry catered to my independence Took my dad away from my adolescence Always went to my mom when I had questions Don't interrupt dad's bible study sessions I didn't want to be a bother See I struggled to talk to my father But regardless I hold him in honor And forgive him for the childhood trauma I know he did all he could For me to put these standards so high That he cannot reach them makes me look no good He could only give me what was taught And though there were times when we yelled and we fought This father and son thing never fell apart You've been supporting me right from the start I see my sons and now I'm ready to impart I've been surfacing things from under surface Wasn't purposefully running from purpose Applying the blood to these demonic curses An Insurgent for my generation's insurgence Life versus death so I'm using these verses You say I'm worth it, at times I feel worthless Whether I'm ready or not, raise the curtains I think that it's time that I Show you the Dross Show you the Dross A reminder of what I am without the cross All the tears I cried... pain inside I think that it's time that I Show you the Dross Show you the Dross I'm counting my blessings to see what it cost Let the fire rise, burn inside It's time that I testify