Trying to Cope

Hmmm, hmmm, hmmm, hmmm Hmm, hmm, hmm, hmm, hmm Yea Look Living life on the daily Regular couldn't phase me That shit made me realize I was stronger than eighty Percent of the population, been maintaining Myself as a person, yay high finger painting Started chasing greatness back when the PlayStation Had that memory card Best believe I was thinking This world was so good and all the evil was vacant Young, lost, and confused nigga, f*ck was I thinking? Actually I shouldn't be hard on myself for breaking Them simple rules or pity a fool just for dreaming Now I see life plain as day and I'm awaken Learnt don't put all your eggs in one basket because they breaking And damn life is a lesson And I ain't ace the test yet because I catch myself guessing Seeking approval from your peer group, nigga stop stressing Making it harder on yourself to deal with those imperfections And God I got some questions Don't mean to put You on blast, but You ignored my last message Been tryna to talk to You dawg since the age of eleven Kept You deep in my thoughts, nah I ain't forgetting Swear I bring that shit up whenever I'm reminiscing I've seen our relationship slowly become distant Don't know if You forgot me or got me in vision But hopefully Your door is still open with no hinges Hold on I'm tripping You been with me from the start How the f*ck could I have ever think You left me in the dark Listening to other people, I should've listened to my heart But I ain't even gonna lie, Trying to Cope is hard Yea Trying to Cope is hard Tired of what you driving Want you a new car Tired of who you with Wanna get you a star Tired of taking shots, you trying to buy the bar Damn Trying to Cope is hard Tired of no money, got you breaking the law Tired of fake friends, got you playing the part Remember who you are and how you made it this far (Look) People ask me "How you doing?" I say "Surviving" Trying to love myself, but they say love is blinding On some birdbox shit Everyday I'm reminded Them lights at the end of the tunnel just keep shining But don't stare at it too long nigga, you'll end up dying Scared to fail at life Impossible if you trying Never putting work in, no wonder you ain't finding Yourself as a person, this stuff can be traumatizing Trying to smoke, just to cope with a couple things Been through hell and back Still dealing with pain Still feeling some loss Still stuck in a maze Memories don't fade, I carry shit till this day Never will I remain the same or go steady Got the city on my back Won't drop it, that shit heavy, in fact My pride is deadly 'cause I can't just push it to the side And through my lowest points in life, I always see the highs There's been some times where I feel like I lost hope People take your kindness for weakness, but that's how you grow That's how you show society you won't fold Survival of the fittest nigga, you know how it goes Yea Trying to Cope with my own life Find my own path My own light, hold on tight Found my balance, now I'm beyond nice Put two and two together and we gonna be ight I'm Trying to Cope nigga But you know nigga That I'm one cold nigga Trying to Cope nigga