What If

Could've been a mistake Did I choose the wrong path on the way My journey getting lost in a maze so I'm standing here tryna think of a way to say This is all fine and what I want is real Honestly it feels so intangible Just need to feel Something really there I can hang onto Palatable when I put it on my tongue Cuz the bars really hit like that I don't wanna spit it out right now but when i do rap you can tell I'm spitting facts This journey ain't for everybody but it's right for me I used to say what if now I'm sayin what's next Cuz while my hearts beats I promise I'm never ever gunna stop 9 to 5 makes me feel like I'm dying inside I'm tryna find an escape See I appreciate the journey but I'm asking how longs it gunna take Had a call with boss this morning he told me that my performance isn't great Now I'm sat here staring at ceiling sayin damn was this all a mistake? Am I wrong for chasing dreams that I desire Taking steps so the level of life will get higher I'm tryna be admired nothing like a messiah I'm more wild I feel like I'm working harder compared to my peers N confidence is a con to cover up my fears Deep down I'm stressed but won't shed a tear You've gotta fake it to make it but stay sincere How do I find the balance Can't pay the bills off rappin even tho it's my passion I need money to invest in the plan I've been mapping and my job behind a desk doesn't give satisfaction How many years it will take to make my way to the top I've climbing for a minute never tempted to stop Simply being the best is not the easiest job And when you're climbing this high they expect you to drop Very optimistic not a shadow of doubt Well we all know that's a lie that I'm not braggin about At least I'm being honest most of rap is cap Talkin bout cars drip and the habits they have The world is yours and I've got it right in my hands Just wait till I make it it's all part of the plan Palatable when I put it on my tongue Cuz the bars really hit like that I don't wanna spit it out right now but when i do rap you can tell I'm spitting facts This journey ain't for everybody but it's right for me I used to say what if now I'm sayin what's next Cuz while my hearts beats I promise I'm never ever gunna stop What started as a hobby, turned into much more Steppin up on stage they give me the floor Wanna hear the crowds roar with a big applause And when I turn to leave they give an encore I know it's coming that's what I'm routing for It takes time I'm just getting warmed Keeping watchin this space because it's growing every day Needless to say that I am on my way