Scared of Myeslf (feat. Emoni Love)

I'm drowning I been feeling like I'm drowning The walls are closing in my anxieties taking over Paranoid and my heart pounding yea I've been in therapy talk about the stuff in me things that I've buried deep Fighting the inner me looking at the villain me I'm my biggest enemy I do to know what I am doing but I'm getting tired of going through these cycles I keep a mask on the bad things like its Halloween just call me Michael Old habits die hard, that's pretty obvious I'm scared of the fall cause it's bottomless, don't know where the bottom is Please don't open my closet cause I don't wanna deal with em All the pain and the hurt and addictions And I don't wanna deal with em Cause I am scared of myself Scared of myself, yea Cause I am scared of myself I see I am the villain, I see I am the villain I see I am the villain That's why I scared of myself They got me taking pills just to deal with my anxieties oh my I think I'm going crazy, cause I'm fighting daily with these wicked things in my mind And I don't know how to deal, with em This been going on for years, maybe This is just how it is, really That's what I really fear That this might be a struggle till I'm in my grave Matter of fact it may be the reason that I pass away And I don't even like to think about it I barely even like to talk about it Try to play it off while I'm drowning Please don't open my closet cause I don't wanna deal with em All the pain and the hurt and addictions And I don't wanna deal with em Cause I am scared of myself Scared of myself, yea Cause I am scared of myself I see I am the villain, I see I am the villain I see I am the villain That's why I scared of myself