pine green

Lately I feel like I've been talking to my demons Try to keep it in the past, but they ain't never leaving And they sitting on my chest tonight, make it hard for sleeping Got my stomach all in knots, and it make it hard for eating Fear of ending up alone will make it hard for leaving And all this pain inside me really makes it hard for breathing My trust keeps getting broken, it makes it hard for feeling Jumping back into the fire really makes it hard for healing Well is it my fault? Shit I've been overthinking Ain't try to compensate with drugs, man just some hopeless drinking And real connections that my issues made me throw away And now I do too much, and I'm hoping you don't go away Made so many plans, I'm trying not rain check But then you threw a bone at me, and I don't want to play fetch Show me the easy way, man teach me just to chase checks The safe full of money now, but where I put this pain at? Losing my religion cause y'all act the same as everyone else Ain't we supposed to be different, don't understand it myself Got my head twisted in so many ways My parents wanna see they son shine, but I see plenty Rain drops on roses and whiskers on kittens Said change was coming I don't see a difference Looked in the eyes of a killer and said I'm not the one And now I realize that's exactly who I am (He's a Producer?)