Note 1: Somnia

Well, there he goes, talkin' about what's in his head again Someone shut him the f*ck up with a fistful of mortal medicine But treat him delicate, he doesn't know what etiquette is Pay no mind to what he says, that shit's irrelevant When did other people decide to speculate? Like they innately know who I am n' say I should learn to integrate Aspirate to be the counterweight to assassinate The very mind state that got me here in the first place Try takin' these eyes for just 5 seconds Take a step out the door n' tell me you don't feel threatened I reckon it wouldn't be at all what you're expectin' But you're on the unaffected side of this mental death sentance Imagine, wakin' up every day Afraid of what's gonna change around the corner Then call me insane (?) It scares me to think one day, I won't remember My kid's faces 'cause daddy's mind went n' snapped beyond measure I know I'm sick, I know I'm vile But I swear on this Jackal's grave that I'll Become the Black Wolf I was raised by Shape my fate outta the pain to cloud nine This is my note to every ghost My kids, my folks, my brothers, the ones I hold close No foe can bring me down when they're around And in due time I hope that I came make em' proud I try to treasure each moment I get preciously They say I'm desperate, keep tryin' F*ck you, I'm tryin' desperately No amount of therapy or years of psychiatric prescriptions could take away the vividness of these visions My decisions hingin' on millions of different conditions Apparitions whisper I gotta choose with pinpoint precision Can't let em' see I'm slippin' My two kids are my only reason for existin' Even to them, I'm distant Don't want them to see the cataclysmic warefare Can't leave the past behind me 'cause my soul is on hold there Every day movin' forward feels like I'm runnin' outta air It's hard to care about the present when I'm constantly Elsewhere Tempe n' Isaq, I love you both so much I know it's hard to understand why your dad's a little nuts I'm sorry I always feel like I'm not enough So I'm out of touch, makin' it rough for you to believe I do it outta love I know I'm sick, I know I'm vile But I swear on this Jackal's grave that I'll Become the Black Wolf I was raised by Shape my fate outta the pain to cloud nine This is my note to every ghost My kids, my folks, my brothers, the ones I hold close No foe can bring me down when they're around And in due time I hope that I came make em' proud