In my head

Yow, check it As I sit and wonder, what possibly went wrong I get all the mixed emotions And I know, I'm through the motions right now Not aware of all the pain that I'm causing Rain I thought wasn't pouring Used All my power, and I flawed it still It's like the harder that I tried To get my shit straight Ended up just screwing things up And dealt a bad hand I'm sad Thinking bout how much, my heart misses you Can't say anything to you, cause you have told yourself that you good now Said that you don't need me now You didn't give me solace to say that I'm sorry love I didn't mean to cheat on you Didn't mean to hurt you How could you move on this quick It's like you never cherished us The memories the promises The good mornings and kisses The morning sex the dinner dates The neverending phone texts I'm sad, cause I keep thinking about you, but at the same time I'm thinking this all in my head I know that I did you wrong And now I'm writing you this song To tell you that I'm sorry And I didn't mean to do you wrong Told that I shouldn't tell you this But I mean well well well well well Well I mean well well well well well well Well well Trust me when I tell you that, I just wanna go fix it Trust me when I tell you that I just wanna go fix it cause It all gets to me, as I sit down in disbelief Thinking bout how this shit here Is just affecting me It's sickening am weakening And I need help They say beginnings aren't that easy But I still need help And at some point after the breakup I thought maybe I need therapy Waited in reception, for this shady looking therapist She met me Straight after the Greeting I was decimated Emotionally and mentally incarcerated And I waited, for questions that were coming up my way Like a final exam, I never studied for I prayed Inhaled exhaled she said Nigga just relax Nervous like a drug addict About to go to rehab, but I couldn't Cause I kept thinking about her And the good times That we had shared yow I know that I did you wrong And now I'm writing you this song To tell you that I'm sorry And I didn't mean to do you wrong Told that I shouldn't tell you this But I mean well well well well well well I mean well well well well well well Well well