Paranoid

I learn from pain, pain done taught the most I stay away to be betrayed, they must be close Am I wrong for the things I did, protecting me I cut off all my friends, cus I can feel them plot on me And I ain't paranoid, I just know how it be You gotta watch your back, you know jealousy a disease it'll take you out Used to hit up bro, like what's the move and run them paper routes I had to cut him off, cause he switched up the pape amount It's backdoor season, watch your back cause they'll snake you out S-M-P N Nada, that's two names that we don't play about When I was young, I had goals, had to put them to the side I'm too hard body, what I look like, crying wipe my eyes But still, I'm not gon' lie I cry sometimes That's when pain get too deep, and I can't fake my smile but I'm too hard body, except the time when brody died but I'm too hard body, except when grandma lost her life I'm tired, do you know what I mean I say I'm tired You can't say you feel my pain if you aint lost nobody twice -In a week, this trauma got me feeling oh so weak God by my side, they probably wouldn't bless me if I sneeze I wanna crash out, I know I'm probably just tweaking Feel like I'ma risk it all just for no reason